It’s now February. A few new things…
I think that’s it. Back to the dark depths of the internet kekeke.
#awkwardmomentsincollege
That moment when you lead someone on… and then lead them on more… and it’s really awkward but you don’t act awkward because you never act awkward… and then you feel really bad afterward… let’s see how tomorrow is, pregame buddy
You are so cute. You remind me of a puppy: eager, excited, and extremely full of energy. I just want to become friends with you this or next year.
Note to self: If ever needed, visit deviantart. It will make you happy, less stressed, and amazed at the world. Remember this if ever needed.
You have me flip flopping like crazy. Seriously, yesterday you made me smile almost constantly. But today, well… God, you frustrate me so much. I hate people that bail. It’s a pet peeve for sure. But also, every time I start to think you’re awesome, you have a way of turning it around. It’s just a never-ending cycle… I need a new crush…
I’m relistening to Fiddler. I don’t really know why.
I love when things work out the way I fantasize them. For example, someone coming to my dorm to eat food and staying and talking to me for like 20 minutes. Perfect.
Although I will note the awkward silences. At the same time, you seemed perfectly comfortable in them. Normal people would take them as an excuse to dash away. I wonder why you wanted to stay?
The Cal trip was fun. The game was not, but that’s another story.
I think with this trip I solidified one friendship and created others. I’m kinda stoked about it to be honest because I may be in the process of forming a group to hang with regularly that aren’t Costa kids. In the process though. Nothing definite… yet…
Oh and I like you.
But I welcome this frustration, I guess.
So you must be really okay with eye contact. Either that, or you’re completely creeped out (doubt it), or you’re on the same page of me (a lesser doubt but doubt’s still there). Seriously, we’re looking at each other. You gonna address it? And by the way, you’re making me really excited for Cal. If you go out of your way to be my bus buddy, I’m taking that as a huge sign.
Kim asked if we knew each other before this year. Internal smile goes here. We ate breakfast together at least 3 times. Internal smile here. Everything else, internal smile fades :(
Classes are boring. Lots of reading. Tuesdays and Thursdays will be the death of me.
1) I’m finally over my kind-of 6 year crush on you. I realized that the first day of band camp, I had no feelings towards you whatsoever. It’s so nice to be liberated of that.
2) I really like college so far.
3) I freaking hate this, but… I have a crush. I can’t help it. It happens. I don’t want to though. I don’t want to act or think or whatever on any of it but it’s just what I do. I’m not over B though (I miss having a best friend), but bleh. I don’t like this.
